30 Day Proverbs Challenge: Day 21

Welcome to Pray! you whore, a blog, that takes you on my personal journey of repentance, reconciliation, and redemption. The cost of disobedience and stubbornness is never worth it. However, when you truly don't have wisdom and you are walking the earth void of truth, God still loves you ! He will come back for you every time but once you know the truth you are called to a higher standard of living. We are called to be ambassadors of Christ and walk in leadership, like salt to the earth. Are you still walking in rebellion (witchcraft)? To keep it real with you all I have been running away from my calling because of my own search for knowledge in all other forms of religion and science. Until I read Proverbs 29:1 "Whoever remains stiff-necked after many rebukes will suddenly be destroyed—without remedy." The truth is that I let culture justify my bad decisions and sins committed in my life. Now I take full accountability and responsibility for people pleasing and being afraid of walking in my calling towards the Lord.

The beautiful thing about the Lord, Jesus Christ is that he loves us unconditionally and with grace and mercy. The story of the Gospel proves this as we get to see how Jesus walked his God given purpose as a human being like us. It was not easy but Jesus (Yeshua) gives us encouragement that it is possible if we walk in our authority as a daughter/ son of God. In Proverbs 29:6 "Evildoers are snared by their own sin, but the righteous shout for joy and are glad." Gods word will always speak truth and he will always tell you what you need to hear. The Lord, Jesus Christ is wanting a relationship with you not religion.

Personally, I grew up more in religion not understanding how to apply what I was learning. The truth is most of us are growing up in unhealthy or toxic environments and we have to forgive ourselves and just learn wisdom and understanding. Proverbs 29:15 "A rod and a reprimand impart wisdom, but a child left undisciplined disgraces its mother." I held on to the pain, disappointment, and anger towards my past and parents for too long. We have to remember life " is never a failure, but always a lesson." Now that I am a parent of two beautiful boys I can show my parents grace and mercy. I understand that they didn't know a lot just as much as I am winging it and figuring out my own trauma and taking it day by day.

I think many times you have to let time and experience be your teacher. This requires trusting in the Lord and not leaning on your own understanding because God has the provision and plan for our lives. As a parent, my goal is to raise two men of God because I wasted a lot of time trying to play God and do life without the Lord, Jesus Christ. In Proverbs 29: 17-18 "Discipline your children, and they will give you peace; they will bring you the delights you desire. 18 Where there is no revelation, people cast off restraint; but blessed is the one who heeds wisdom’s instruction." As a parent and single mother I cannot do this own my own. God had to break me and bring me back home to recreate my foundation of life in my Heavenly Father. I am in the process of healing my inner child trauma so that I can become the woman of God and mother God has called me to be.

I was so afraid of not meeting the expectations put upon me as the oldest sibling, the college graduate, the division I athlete, the four time state champion, the independent woman who survived NYC. I was empty living in survival mode and conforming to what every one else wanted me to be. I had lost myself in relationships by trying to bring happiness to others but suffering by "casting my pearls to swine." I did not know how to actually apply the religion I had learned in my life because I had no relationship with the Lord. What we need to learn is in Proverbs 29:25 "Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord is kept safe." This verse gave me so much peace. I had to acknowledged how my lack of stability and safety was a result of God not being my foundation. Wisdom and understanding comes from our Heavenly Father, not a book, not a mentor, not a shaman/ psychic/ guru. Please learn your foundation in the Lord, Jesus Christ (Yeshua) before you enter a relationship or try to lead. You will be in rebellion and witchcraft if you do anything in life without God!

xoxo KISS( Keep it Simple & Sanctified)