30 Day Proverbs Challenge: Day 24

Welcome to Pray! you whore, a blog, that takes you on my personal journey of repentance, reconciliation, and redemption. Today is Mothers Day and I am so blessed to be accepting and growing in this role. Being a mother is not easy but it elevates you spiritually and has forced me to stay at Jesus feet like Mary. This story has appeared at least three times in the last week. When you stay focused on the Lord, he is always near and giving you the encouragement and inspiration you need. How has life humbled you? What do you do to stay surrendered and obedient to the Lord Jesus Christ?

At the ripe age of 33 years old, I am officially humbled. All the things I have feared have manifested and all the things that I thought I would have are not anywhere close in my life. I thought I would have a mansion, a successful 6-figure business and happily married. Life today has been a humbling experience and a frustrating experience but I have to admit that I was immature and lacked wisdom. I simply had to rebuild the foundation and go back to basics in my faith and belief system. Now I can appreciate the simple truth found in Proverbs 1:7 "The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and instruction." I was definitely living the life explained in "warning against the invitation of sinful men" and was swept away into destruction and negativity. My intentions were to be the light in the darkness, to save and heal others by providing a "safe space to heal"

The only "safe space to heal" is in Christ and at Jesus Christ feet, a daily surrender to his commandments. I had to be humbled through my own experience and mistakes. My own foolishness was trying to prove to everyone that I can do life on my own and that is so far from the truth. I am in a season of rebuke by the wisdom of the Lord and understanding the importance and power of repentance. When you walk in the worlds way it can be difficult to conform to God's way out of bad habits. I encourage you today to listen, grow and repent for your wrongdoing and to stop walking in rebellion like me. In Proverbs 1:22-23 Solomon states "“How long will you who are simple love your simple ways? How long will mockers delight in mockery
and fools hate knowledge? 23 Repent at my rebuke!" I am learning to take correction, fear the Lord and have faith, by walking in obedience because I tried my own way already and failed.

Today I encourage you to find joy in your tribulations and in your failures. I know your like whatever Briana, this sucks and it does not feel good when your struggling, broke and heart broken. I picked this verse out of my jar today... James 1:2 " Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds." So I am learning to love the fights and failures because I know that I am being transformed and the Lord Jesus Christ is bringing me near him. The Lord Jesus Christ wants a relationship with us and its imperative to see your struggle as an opportunity to depend on him. God is bringing me through a process of relying on him to be my provider (my Jehova Jireh) and that takes surrender, humility and patience. I value my relationship and fear the day this ever happens in my life “Then they will call to me but I will not answer; they will look for me but will not find me, 29 since they hated knowledge and did not choose to fear the Lord." I am chosen and called to be an ambassador of Christ and bring people to God. That is the only purpose i have in my life now and I don't want any other distraction or purpose to be fulfilled.

Life walking with te Lord has been so simple and peaceful. Whenever I am anxious and worried I know that God has not called me to feel that way. I can immediately rebuke and repent for whatever situation and get back on track. When your lost and not walking in your sanctification and truth life will feel like its happening "to you" instead of "for you." Remember Proverbs 1:32-33 says "For the waywardness of the simple will kill them, and the complacency of fools will destroy them; 33 but whoever listens to me will live in safety and be at ease, without fear of harm.” We are not perfect, that is why we need to depend on Jesus Christ, to guide and instruct us. I am now walking in the spirit, not the flesh and it feels so good to be my true self, a daughter of God.

xoxo KISS (Keep it Simple & Sanctified)