A Return to My Fathers House

Happy Fathers Day to my Father as you did the best you could do. I understand that now as a parent now the responsibility, the fear and exhaustion that comes with lack of surrender, healing and humility. I see the patterns of narcissism in the men I date and the partners I chose today. I see the narcissism and lack of humility in my own self, my own family and the generation we are in today. The truth is we come from DNA, a bloodline that I believe the devil attacks on purpose. In John 10:10 it reminds us that the devil has strategy, it says "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full." The devil has always wanted to take out God's children because we have always been given dominion and more power than him. Only if we knew the spiritual authority we possess and the dominion we have over this earth and the enemy.

As I was discussing with a friend the guilt and brokenness that family can carry. It's honestly overwhelming and so damaging but I refuse to give the enemy the satisfaction he wants. I encourage you to always forgive and remember that the strategy of the enemy is to divide and conquer. So even as a victim of divorce and a broken heart I thank the grief that I experience as a reminder to surrender to our Lord Jesus Christ and Heavenly Father, God daily. It is our humility and long suffering that sometimes brings us closer to our Heavenly Father, God. Remember the Lord is always near and says "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Remember that you are a victor not a victim of your circumstances and experiences. Now I know my purpose in the family bloodline is to be the generational curse breaker and let the Lord restore the brokenness and family bloodline.

Most of us need to pay attention to Jesus Christ and how he sacrificed and suffered for us. He saved us with the cross and by shedding his blood so that we can be forgiven and join our royal and spiritual bloodline. Lets read together Psalms 14:7 "Oh, that salvation for Israel would come out of Zion! When the Lord restores his people, let Jacob rejoice and Israel be glad!" On this Fathers Day I chose to pray and lift up my earthly father and family as only the Lord can restore and save us. I move out of the way and heal my own narcissism and pride and realize that the healer is not me but Jesus Christ. I forgive because I am forgiven and I am a sinner who has repeated generational curses. I am aware and therefore called to return to my Fathers house! When you return your identity is restored in Spirit and in truth and you become a new person with Christ and a part of a new family, the body of Christ!

Today I stand empowered and thankful for all that my Heavenly Father has allowed me to endure. The Lord has led me to read Joshua this month and it is a powerful chapter on leadership, consecration and strength (the meaning of my name). We must accept Gods will for our lives and I would not be here writing and telling my testimony without my Heavenly Father. As the eldest and a natural born leader I am reminded of Joshua 1:9 which says "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” You may be running away from the calling like I was for many years but God will bring you to a stand still and place of peace where you have to rely on him wholeheartedly and the the gift of rest. That is why I have titled this sermonette " A return to my Fathers house." As I am at my earthly fathers house it has been a moment to forgive, rest and reconnect to my Heavenly Father who loves me unconditionally, who knows what is best for me and will lead me to the inheritance that he has waiting for me.

I no longer hold anger, grudges or resentment towards my earthly father. I have taken this time to accept that we should never look to man but look to God, our Heavenly Father who created and knew us before we were formed in the womb. The Lord gave me this verse this week I Timothy 4:12 "Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity." God has called me to lead and be the repairer of the breach. There is no running, but only grief, longs suffering and healing at my fathers house to remind me of all that I have accomplished with God. I am here to be the example not wish someone else would have been. I am here to be the victor of the bloodline and lead my family to the promised land, the land of milk and honey. I now accept the challenge because I know that my Daddy God will never let me fail but will give me the strength and courage to carry out his will in my life. Release all unforgiveness and remember that you are a child of God, your Heavenly Father first.

xoxo KISS (Keep it Simple & Sanctified)